The end of one year and the beginning of a new one is often an unintentional time of reflection for me. Christmas night I found myself sitting in my brother's den thinking wow I can not believe that I am ending and starting off another year like this. By like this I mostly meant without a mate. I went into the room where my sister-n-law was and I shared what I was thinking with her and she stopped me in my tracks and said your time is coming. You have prepared and now it is time. I admit I walked a way feeling a little better but not much. I went to bed that night and I prayed for God to take those thoughts and feelings away because I knew that they were not from Him.
The next morning before I got out a bed I picked up my phone and went to my Bible reading plan. The title for that day was The Love of God! As I began to read the devotional this part really stood out to me:
Paul continues to describe Abraham’s faith. Abraham believed God’s promise that he and Sarah would have a child, even though it was no longer a human possibility.
We learn of Abraham that ‘no unbelief or distrust made him waver (doubtingly question) concerning the promise of God, but he grew strong and was empowered by faith as he gave praise and glory to God, fully satisfied and assured that God was able and mighty to keep His word and to do what He had promised’ (Romans 4:20–21, AMP). In other words, Paul reiterates, Abraham was justified by faith.I began to pray and ask God why this stood out to me and what was he trying to say to me? I knew God was using this devotional because a huge sense of peace fell over me in that moment and I felt comforted and my spirits were instantly lifted. That night I stayed up to almost 3am despite my having a 6:50am flight back home. Because I only took a short nap I decided that I was going to get off the plane and go home and go to bed! However, when I go back to DC I was not sleepy and decided to run to the store really quick. I was able to get in and out of the store in less than 45 minutes and on the ride home I thought it was horrible that I was actually trying to justify my reasoning for going to the store but not going to church. I was really thinking like at least when I was at the store I was walking around but if I go to church it is going to be dark and I am going to be sitting and I do not want to fall asleep in church. Despite my winning the battle in my head I really felt in my spirit that I needed to go to church.
I get to church and worship is awesome and Pastor Jeremy gets up and starts talking about the promises God has given us through the dreams in our hearts. The message title was something like How to Practically Position Ourselves to See Progress in God's Promises for our Lives. The scriptures he came from were out of Genesis starting in chapter 12 and it was the story of God's promise to Abraham and Sarah. #LightBulb I was immediately taken back to the devotional I read the prior morning. This message was my answer. It was everything that I needed to hear from God regarding those thoughts from Christmas night. He reminded me that He has not forgotten about me regarding the things He has promised me. He reminded me is there anything too hard for God?! In fact here He was using Pastor Jeremy to get me to practically position myself to receive His promises.
I really took this message to heart and I started to read and really study the story. I really began to reflect on my own life and it was like a mirror image of Abraham and Sarah's journey. I imagine that like with me God repeatedly reminded Abraham of His promises in those moments when doubt and unbelief tried to creep into my mind. After Lot had gone, the Lord said to Abram, “Look as far as you can see in every direction—north and south, east and west. I am giving all this land, as far as you can see, to you and your descendants as a permanent possession. And I will give you so many descendants that, like the dust of the earth, they cannot be counted! Go and walk through the land in every direction, for I am giving it to you.” Genesis 13:14-17 NLT Then the Lord said to him, “No, your servant will not be your heir, for you will have a son of your own who will be your heir.” Then the Lord took Abram outside and said to him, “Look up into the sky and count the stars if you can. That’s how many descendants you will have!” Genesis 15:4-5 NLT “This is my covenant with you: I will make you the father of a multitude of nations! What’s more, I am changing your name. It will no longer be Abram. Instead, you will be called Abraham, for you will be the father of many nations. I will make you extremely fruitful. Your descendants will become many nations, and kings will be among them! Genesis 17:4-6 NLT And in those moments where it seemed like He was in the same place and no progress was being made God had Abraham reflect back on where he God had brought him from "Then the Lord told him, “I am the Lord who brought you out of Ur of the Chaldeans to give you this land as your possession.” Genesis 15:7 NLT
This really just confirmed to me God's love and faithfulness. He knew that I need to be reminded of His promises to me and that no matter how things may look in the natural He is always working behind the scenes. He is not moved by our circumstances and situations. He knows the plans He has for our lives. God is faithful and I would challenge anyone to reading this to take Him at His word and trust that the same way He fulfilled His promises to Abraham, He will fulfill His promises to us as well. The Lord kept his word and did for Sarah exactly what he had promised. She became pregnant, and she gave birth to a son for Abraham in his old age. This happened at just the time God had said it would. Genesis 21:1-2 NLT All God requires of us is to faith and obedience. When Abram was ninety-nine years old, the Lord appeared to him and said, “I am El-Shaddai—‘God Almighty.’ Serve me faithfully and live a blameless life. I will make a covenant with you, by which I will guarantee to give you countless descendants.” Genesis 17:1-2 NLT And Abram believed the Lord , and the Lord counted him as righteous because of his faith. Genesis 15:6 NLT Remember Jesus Christ is the same yesterday, today, and forever. Hebrews 13:8 NLT
This song brought it all home for me.
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